Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Final transfer

It was strange to think that, considering we have agreed this is our final try of IVF, then today was also the last time our embryos would be transferred into me. Everything went pretty smoothly. The doctor wouldn't tell us the rating of the embryos but commented that one of them had grown particularly fast and was the better of the two.

This morning I went to the hairdresser bright and early at 8am! I wanted to get my hair coloured and cut before the transfer. If all goes well, then I would try to avoid dying my hair for as long as possible and then ideally only with dyes containing less chemicals. It seems overwhelming thinking that in two weeks I'll know the outcome! By then I'll know if it's a total negative and our journey to try to have our child or children will be over and it will be time to look towards a different future.

After the transfer hubby and I had a silly argument. The details are a bit stupid but I ended up getting emotional. All the stress from the past two weeks was getting to me. I'm feeling much better now though. And reasonably positive. Once we got home we had a relaxing afternoon. I've taken several days off work post transfer this time and that will be nice to have some time to relax before going back to work.

This is the top I wore for the transfer. I love butterflies and something about them has always made me feel hopeful. As well as the spotty socks I had worn for my first IVF transfer, the only time I was properly pregnant, even though it was short lived! This evening we watched the latest Muppets film which was a bit of fun.

If I start thinking about things too much then it's a little overwhelming so I'm planning to keep up the philosophy I used at the beginning of this cycle and just take things one day at a time. I am also planning to try to hold off for the official blood test if I can manage it this time. If I do any pregnancy tests beforehand I run the risk of getting false positive again (which happened the previous two times from leftover IVF hormones!). And even if it were an actual positive I wouldn't know the HCG value until the blood test anyway and it could end up being a chemical. So best just to wait it out.

Thanks so much to all my online friends who have been supporting and following along by the way!

23 comments:

  1. I love the butterfly shirt, and the socks! How lovely to have some extra time to relax after. I have everything crossed for you, and I so hope that this is the last but most fruitful transfer for you. I love your one day at a time philosophy. Best of luck to you!

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    1. Yea the butterfly top and polka-dot socks also felt really "me" so I was happy I wore them. Having the new days off ahead of me to relax is nice. Thanks for the well wishes :)

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  2. I love the butterfly shirt too! Sounds like you planned it right, time off to relax and just be is perfect. I love the doctor's comment too, very encouraging. Thinking of you and sending you all the hope in the world <3

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    1. Heya, I hope everything is still going well for you! Yeah the doctor's comment was nice, hopefully a great sign that one of the embryos anyway is a good one! Thanks for all the support!

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  3. I love the butterfly top! I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best outcome.

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    1. Yeah it's one of my favourite tops :) Thanks so much for the support!

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  4. I've been following your IVF journey and I wish you all the best!

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    1. aw that's so sweet. Thanks for the well wishes! :)

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  5. Thinking of you! So sorry to hear you went through a roller coaster with the retrieval and fertilization results. Hoping and praying you have an easy and smooth 2ww with amazing results on the other side. Rooting for you and agree to stay away from the pee sticks.

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    1. Thanks so much. Yeah there are just so many roller coasters in this whole journey. Hubby has asked me to promise not to test early this time but wait until the blood test so I'll try to do that. Hope you are doing ok, you've been on my mind too.

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    2. Been ok, thanks. Ups and downs as expected.

      It's hard to stay away from the test strips, but do whatever feels right. Just be kind to yourself and enjoy every minute of being pupo.

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  6. Awesome shirt! *Crossing fingers* for results.

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  7. I wish pregnancy gave more obvious symptoms that could not be misconstrued.

    Can't our eyes glow a dull emerald green? Or give us magic powers? That'd be cool.

    Something more definite so we didn't have to agonize about what's going on in our own body.

    Fingers crossed. May your eyes glow green and you learn to cast magic missile. ;)

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    1. haha, love that comment! Yeah I wish there were an obvious sign. It would be nice to just know. However it would have to be a more secret "sign", and not something like eyes changing colour or your boss and nosy neighbours would know immediately!

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  8. Everything crossed for you!
    The butterfly top is gorgeous.

    Taking things one day at a time sounds like a good philosophy.

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    1. Thanks! Yeah the one day at a time thing makes it all less overwhelming.

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  9. I love that top Dubliner. PS it's normal to be emotional and to overthink everything. Yeah they don't call it all a roller coaster for nothing! Good luck

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  10. Fingers crossed for you! This part is sooo nerve wrecking.

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  11. My fingers are crossed for you! It seems like you're in a good headspace and holding on to hope. There's not much you can do at this point other than relax and take care of yourself. I'm cheering those little embryos on and thinking of you daily. Stay strong and avoid those at-home pregnancy tests!

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    1. Thanks so much for the support! Yeah, I do feel like I've been in a good headspace this round. Mainly taking it all in my stride as much as possible. It's nice to keep hoping.

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  12. I'm keeping everything crossed for you! Everything of the best. That shirt is perfect. xx

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